“When there is no way to find happiness then we only have one choice to sacrifice what we call hatred, because only with that joy will be born next we ‘Agnes Davonar



Actually what is the meaning of happiness. Create a cave, happiness is seen from anyone who is around us. Create a cave, it’s happiness. Should be of the cave life, there are only people who mattered. But, unfortunately the happiness that I have felt in his own cave kotorin by the mind. Once, I had a complete family, father, mother and a brother. But the older brother of this cave is very different. He’s like a barrier happiness in life cave, not because he’s clever or could win the affections of an old cave. But because he’s an idiot. but from him, I learned one thing, one thing is taught that he was the angel in the cave that berwujub human life

Idiot in the sense of the word stupid, disability and disgrace as a sister cave. Ga anyone can be proud of her cave, uda age 5 years older than the cave, but begonya like 10 years from the cave easier. Caves not surprisingly, nyokap to be willing to postpone the birth of the cave five years later, just to take care of him. In the language of medicine, he’s got Down syndrome brain that makes him was stupid. Ga matter what disease he was born with, should he ever wrote was ga, because according to the cave, he was just a disgrace cave.

Since childhood, I always say to nyokap. If you want to pick a cave in school, never carry Hendra (name of the cave’s brother) or ga cave it will never come home with them. Mum remained indifferent aja brothers take the cave. Finally when they came, I ran away from school and chose to walk home from school.

Back home, nyokap get mad at the cave with the same kata2,

“Angel, you know this ga thank you, Mama’s brother cape2 you’ve picked you, why even run?”

“Who says Angel run away?”

“Brother you even like this, but he was not going to forget the face of his brother who ran away from him?”

Cave was silent and could imagine that his brother nunjuk2 cave while trying to escape from their caves,

“Who told him take it, Angel’s got a sister ashamed stupid like that .. angel told him not to pick up if there is .. “Said I ran into the room.

Cave, ga never want to understand? Are sentences ucapin cave, could make older cave cave ga understand if he likes the same. But the sentence was enough to make nyokap angry. Yes .. do not care are important. Caves do not want diledekin friends because she had a sister like an idiot.

***

Actually sister cave, not too bad and make trouble in the cave-daily kesehari. He can feed himself, bathe himself, and can be played alone without the need ditemenin anyone. When he suddenly appeared at the cave again engrossed in watching TV, I always tell him to go, he’s a stupid face and his face was a geeky. He even insisted on watching the same part of the cave. Because the cave kesel shouted.

“Hey idiot go deh, cave lazy loe watching the same cave .. there go .. “

“Angel .. sister .. why hate each brother .. “he said word-broken,

Cave was silent.

Actually ga no answer why I should hate him. Just feel the cave, this cave ga life like my friends the other cave. Have a brother who is normal, it could be a protective cave. So friends chatting cave. But the sister cave .. it seems impossible.

Finally cave in and go from the living room, letting him watch TV alone.

First, the cave not too concerned and was not ever the same sebenci sister cave, as a child, I used to play dolls with her, playing run-Larian. Or share the same tv. Cave was all fine with him, until finally when I started to move into adolescence and junior high school (SMP), everything changed. At first my friends not know if there is a cave brother’s an idiot, until over time much to see for yourself brother nyokap cave when he picked the same cave, the cave began to feel ashamed. Friends began to cave knows, if I had an idiot brother, started talking like a cave in the back. If there are lessons about the class when I should come forward to answer when asked the teacher, and I failed. There were cries that makes the heart sick cave.

“Pantes ga could, in .. idiot wrote his brother, especially his sister .. “

Hearing that, the cave so kesel own. And go home, if the first brother playing cave cave immediately take the doll, this doll is her love of the cave, the cave immediately throwing,

“Do not play the same cave again, ..”

“Go .. why? “said brother cave.

“Cave shy loe have a sister like an idiot ..”

He paused. May think what lakuin cave to cave dia.tapi do not care. So from then on every play he invited cave, the cave will be angry and not want to.Mum always told I play with him and I even cried.

“Mama, why does Angel have a sister like that flawed, Angel’s embarrassment at school my friends on ledekin angel .. idiot, stupid, this is it, angel shy ma .. “

Mama even slap caves and cave brother Seeing it.He immediately pull the hand mama cave.

“Basic child not know myself, how dare you say so to your mom and sister ..”

“What one Angel, one honestly say that if the angel embarrassed .. ashamed to have a sister like that ..flawed, stupid, idiot … “I said as he ran into the room.

nyokap cave could only hug brother, sister cave which might be defective, he must understand rauk cave faces and angry emotions. Mum could only cry and sister cave stroked her hair gently as she stroked the cat who often find on the street.

***

My father was a cave, working in the mines so not ever come home if once a year. If the home was, he was more habisin same time handicapped sister cave, cave but also his son, but I love to just merely give us money and kiss on the forehead, the same difference sister cave is considered the golden boy.Cave no need to envy with this one, which can be important cave cave allowance for tau, the love of money nyokap ga to ga there is caves that the buckets would temenin idiot sister to play together.

Whose name teenager, definitely beginning to feel the love. So, in the school opposite, there are cute kids who really like the name Aji cave. Caves often Seeing him play basketball with my boys at school caves in the park. One time, the cave until the willing-so willing pembokat basketball club can bring a drink special schools for basketball players just to know at her. Caves not ugly and beautiful, but I am fairly confident that the love is sincere definitely be reciprocated later.

Without knowing the cave, cave clay Aji often walk home, he’s on a motorcycle. Quote pity or like the same cave, he finally nawarin ride. Gosh, I really heart flowered really when the offer came to the cave. But I know, would be a problem if she’s house tau caves and cave brother Seeing the disabled, the cave had to tell him to anterin cave 100 meters far from the cave house, because I know, my brother always welcome cave cave cave in front of the house every want to go home . What happens if he knows that I have a sister with disabilities, surely he ilfeel same cave.

Unnoticed, cave closer to him. I dream to have a boyfriend like he’s almost reached the cave when he was invited to her birthday as a guest privileges.Cave certainly have to love him gifts privileges.Therefore, I have to bribe nyokap cave by pretending to be good and want to play the same brother that idiot cave until the cave to gather money for your love gift to Aji. Secretly, I’ve nanya to him, like what if later on birthday gifts.

“What I wrote the thank you anyway, even if only the interest on the road ..” Aji said that makes the heart of the cave was almost dislodged because romantic

From her friends, I know. Most liked the name Aji sport helmet. But the price is very expensive, and I know, whatever I did well so baby sister sister cave with disabilities, will not be able to buy the helmet.Forced to cave thinkers another gift for him. While nemenin brother playing cave, cave-Baying so imagine what should I buy. Sister cave cave like feeling dazed and nanya.

“Why, play the old monopoly, sister filmed it ..?” Said brother cave that once was good though idiots money.

“Want to know wrote,” I said as she stepped monopoly measures.

Suddenly the cave so kepikiran, maybe not so, this idiot brother caves have money to buy helmets discordant aids cave.

“Uh, kak, not have money?” Said the cave and he immediately nyodorin money monopoly that makes BT cave.

“Money real silly, not the money like this, money is also a lot of caves like this ..”

“For .. what? “Ask him if you talk like a typical kepatah-broken fool.

“There kagak ..?” Tanya kesel cave.

Suddenly, he disappeared into his room and back again with a jar containing money predication.

“This .. for sister .. “

“Sumpeh loe .. This money saving loe results over the years, many bener .. “

“For sister .. sister love .. “

“Sure ..”

“He .. but temanin brother buy candy at the supermarket .. “

“That’s doang condition .. so easy. Capcus yukkk “I said as she articulated her to the nearest supermarket.

Finally, thanks to sister cave, the cave can buy beautiful gifts to Aji. It felt very happy, but I know, this charm would have invited many people in her birthday. So I must be special in that day, I have a beautiful grooming and really looks great on her birthday party.

Arrived arrived on time.

“Angel where are you going?:” Tanya nyokap same cave while watching tv sister cave.

“Going to a friend’s birthday. ”

“You have taken your brother money huh?” Tanya nyokap.

“Kagak tuh, which give us her own, Tanya wrote himself to him ..”

“Ooo. Pantesan saving her money runs out,. Know ye not, she’s saving money to buy you a birthday present next week .. “Said nyokap immediately realized that caves make cave birthday next week.

“Oo. So, thanks deh, as well as his money to the aja angel right now. “

“Going to where Angel’s birthday ..”

“Next to the school, green cafe. The brother also know, is not often ask for a green ice there .. “

“Yauda, ​​be careful ..”

With a sense of freedom without restrictions nyokap independence, finally stepped cave millipedes towards Aji birthday. Until there, I really ga wrong guess, a lot cewek2 invited to the anniversary of her, including Agnes, bubuyutan enemy cave in school who liked reseh. When I entered the cave he went negur.

“Eh idiot younger brother, came here .. do? Not bring brother loe here? “He said and wrote diem cave.

Cave saw Agnes uda bring gifts and suddenly remembered that I miss at home gifts.

“Gift of the cave privileges tables, gifts from loe where ngel? Do not tell loe came just want to ride a free lunch. ‘

“Deh reseh not need u. I got gifts, gifts that do not need to cave into the clay love loe .. “

“Oh yes .. Yes .. Alhamdulillah (syarini said similar meaning) still know myself too .. “

Agnes went ninggalin cave, and cave feel so stupid to miss gift for Aji, if you return to the home definitely the highlight of the first birthday cake from Aji will too. Caves not be willing to have the first Agnes can cake. Cave was racked my brain thinking to make the atmosphere so not damaged.

At home.

Stupid sister cave, suddenly Seeing gift box which is located on the floor accidentally, so wrapping it up at the cave again iket shoelaces, and direct ninggalin once wrote. And surely he knows that the cave will inget to a birthday party that had sebutin cave, with a daring he brought gifts nyokap it alone without the knowledge of another cave in the kitchen washing dishes. While struggling to remember the way, he finally arrived in front of the green cafe in his hand as he brought gifts.

When the party took place and want sebutin Aji began her first cake, caves and Agnes each other thinking to get it. But suddenly the name Aji cave, caves are excited about the victory and advanced to face in front of a furious Agnes dead.

“Aji excuse me, the gift I’ll miss you tomorrow love ya pas on the basketball court ..”

“Gapapa yes, this is the first special cake for you.”

And when the important moment, the cave is an idiot brother appeared. While shouting.

“Sister .. sister .. sister is the gift … .. the gift .. “

Everybody saw the brother of the cave. And aji was so. Cave face instantly surprised. Agnes uses the occasion as he said.

“Wow, her sister Angel came tuh, the idiot .. brother and sister finally gathered idiot hahahaha “

Sister who is angry because they feel cave Agnes teasing cave, directly attacking Agnes until her face falls forward and terceplak birthday cake in his face.Caves are embarrassed by the incident immediately panic. Aji said.

“‘s Brother loe ..” I stared as she could not answer anything

“Instead .. he is not a sister cave .. “said the cave ran out of the party and felt so ashamed, because panic unknowingly speeding motorcycle and crashed into the cave until the cave terpentar without being able to see anything other than the last person on eye shadow of the cave is a cave brother shout -shouted

Sister .. sister ..

***

Two weeks later, I woke up, woke up with the conditions without shaking legs and hands cave, cave broken collar bone because of the collision.Mum at my father there beside the cave. But there is less complete than those two, the brother of the cave.

“Ma, I’m where?” Said the cave as he felt the eyes of the sick.

“In the hospital .. uda you not been up since five days ago, you’re in a coma for that. “

Cave looked around and there are caves in the hospital and several medical resources. But that’s not what I want to see. Cave would like to see sister cave, the cave was in a cave to sleep, always pictured him. Shadows where dreams of a happy childhood playing with him, he was carrying the cave, his love of food that I liked and she said she’d love the last cave with broken.

“Where brother?”

Mum crying, and my father was silent with a heavy heart to say.

“He was again treated in the next room ..”

“Loh he sick? Kok also in the hospital? “

Cave got up and walked into the cave bonyok help the next room and see the cave’s brother who was asleep while hugging a doll that she used to love to the cave .. I see a cave with a sister concern and both his eyes covered with bandages,

“Your brother gave his eyes for you, when ye fall accidents and damage your eyes because it brought laksa fluid motor to be exposed to your eyes.”

“Gosh. So brother can ngelihat ga dong .. “

Cave was crying when she heard the sentence.

“Not only that, there is bleeding that occurs after surgery and you are so critical gini brother.”

Cave cave’s brother took her hand, saying.

“Brother, wake up, maafin Angel .. brother, wake up.Angel promises after recovering brother, sister angel will love the same again .. angel please .. “

Brother’s hand and said in a cave moves as usual.

“Sister .. sister .. love you brother .. happy birthday “said sister cave for the last ucapaan he

And that was the last sentence which I heard from him. He was gone forever, forever to make a cave kept alive by wrapping his eyes to the cave. doctors had refused to give his eyes to the cave, but caves brother insisted. He felt there should be no one else the same defect in this family than her, mom also refused, but the older brother was angry and I do not want to eat until he could love his eyes to the cave.Mom finally melted, he was sincere, and the cave opearasi brother succeeded but a natural cave and finally critical bleeding and gone forever. Forever to make the cave feel no need to feel ashamed to have a brother like him. He is not just a brother who survived the suffering that he had as a child born with kerterbatasannya, Tapia he was a brother to take the angel who never stopped loving the cave as his brother.

Without ever felt hurt by the sentences that are sometimes more piercing than I hit it hard.

Brother, because you now I was conscious,

I was not born to perfect without you, even though this world may never be fair to your life today, whatever you do on the basis of what you think, you’re still my sister the best, the best who ever wanted to tell to the world.

That there is only one chance for me with you in this life is the time when you live with me.

farewell my beloved brother

“Because there is no real lasting love in our mind than the love of a mother who always we remember until we end up later” Agnes Davonar

 

In life, we had so much love. Compassion is possible for some people only for a moment but for the others to be immortal forever. Like this story, the love of a mother who I expect to ever happen in your life but you do not waste it. Remember, a mother’s love will never stop he gave under any circumstances. Hopefully this story you guys realize how important mothers in your life.

I have a mother, in a young age, she gave birth because a young marriage. Father and mother lived happily and had me a spoiled and self-sufficient life.Until I was 7 years old, I always get whatever I want.Luckily I’m smart, so always be a champion. My teacher said hell, I’m a genius so that even without studying any exam score in my class always get an A.

The happiness that I feel and luxury that I feel all of a sudden be gone when the father had an accident.He died leaving an enormous debt. I was never prepared to poor but not with the mother. We lost the house and should stay home cheap flats that have only one room with one bedroom. Mother knows, I’m smart and not supposed to quit school, because a young marriage and families challenged the mother finally expelled from his family. While the elderly father, was not there anyone who would help our lives.

After selling all the jewelry she had. Mom had the idea to sell chicken noodle. At that time I was 13 years. He still had to bear the debts of the father he had to pay.

“Mother will sell noodle to help our lives. Angel help out .. mother huh? “

I was silent and it was not like the idea of ​​motherhood.

“Mother will be selling noodles where? As if mothers can make noodles? “I asked.

“Loh maternal grandmother’s first commercial noodle, so mothers know the recipe. then the mother may trade in front of the complex road ahead. There are many people who work in the market. Times-once demand. So you can stay in school. “

“I do not want .. I’m embarrassed. Mothers are selling, I do not want to help .. “

“Yes son, you need not help mom, you’re just learning a viable and working mothers will be mothers tomorrow .. will you go to school to try to get a scholarship ..”

I’m glad she does not expect me to sell with him.What would they say about me. Mom has a noodle wagon that he bought secondhand and every morning he would push the cart into the stall where he sells and as early as possible before the sun rose he was not at home when I wake up. He never asked me to sell but sometimes I help her to just cut the garlic and only simple tasks are most important in the house I was not going to go trade with the mother.

My friends, may know. If my father had died. But they never know if my family were poor. Mom managed to get a scholarship for me so I do not have to pay tuition until I graduated smp later. But school life that I feel any different than when my father first. Now I rarely eat dikantin. I brought noodles mother made every day that makes me bored, when my friends invited me to eat. I always say.

“I again do not want to eat in the cafeteria, not the mood” or “I’m on a diet” when I do not have the money.

But, if I’m lucky, when a friend’s birthday, so without hesitation I would throw my mother’s noodle canteen with food treats. Because I’m too smart, I know how to take advantage of my friends are stupid. Just to make school or homework, it would make me have an allowance. Mom will not give me pocket money more. He just menjatahku 5000 a day and you can imagine how I lived with that little money.

So that my friends can never tell my mother to sell noodles. I always shy away when I saw the mother in the street market trading. I’m looking for a longer distance to spin up to the back street susunku an ugly house. Because of the slums, of course, my friends will not be on my level to get there. If want to do housework. Yes I went to their house, having satisfied my best friend slept on a soft bed. I went home and suffer with my hard mattress.

Mother despite working from morning to evening. He never stopped to ask about my school work. He still consider myself and somehow become poor like this since our relationship became cold, I still think the death of his father by the mother because of this error. if only that moment, he did not ask my father to pick him up at the salon. Father would not have an accident. So since the poor like this .. I just always answer a word when he asked.

Poverty we walked until I finally sat down public high school and graduated with good grades in school so getting a scholarship sma favorites. To purchase new school clothes the mother just can not afford because they still have to pay the debts his father.He even received donations from our neighbors who happened to have graduated high school and gave me clothes.

“I do not want to wear old clothes. Mending I do not have school. “

“Angel, you have to understand our circumstances.Wear this shirt to school, for a while until a new mother can give. “

“From the first mother also always said it wanted to buy it?, But at the end lies. Why is culture? we are so poor as this, if the father is still there! Ga he might love me used clothes like this, “cried I was rude and left home.

“Angel going?”

“Want to find the wind. Bored at the poor state of the house like this!

If I’m angry, my mother would not be mad at me.Wonder how many complaints and anger that I do for him. All I know, I just want our lives as before. Not as hard and as poor as this. God it’s never fair with my life, he was like making fun of me.

***

My new school is more comfortable with my situation because all the kids in my school new kids who do not know my background, although this is still a special school for their children can afford. Some of the kids in the class might like me but the others are sometimes looked at me strangely. Sometimes I heard a whisper that is enough to make my ears hot.

“It’s Angel, his parents could not anyway? yes .. really filthy clothes This school emangnya thank ya boy like that “said Agnes to her friends.

“Denger-denger can still gini school because scholarship” said friend agnes accidentally while I passed.

I want to be angry to hear them gossiping but I would think the smart thing to not talk meladenin them than what they are talking about more widespread because I responded. After school, I cried. Not accept the words of my friend. Mother happened to be home to take out noodles.

“Angel mother’s day out tables of merchandise„ mothers are excited about” the mother said to me, and she suddenly saw me crying.

“Why are you crying ..”

“Quote mother cares? What mother would care about me alive “

“Why say that ..”

“I’m embarrassed bu, everyone ledekin this filthy clothes .. I do not want school tomorrow?”

My mother just sighed. Then go after taking noodles in the refrigerator. He closed the door with tears. He trade without enthusiasm. Calculate any money she got from a bowl of noodles sold. Leaving some to the capital tomorrow. He got up early to buy vegetables and noodles selling needs. In fact I think he only slept 3 hours to a day-to-day. Her pretty face was now unkempt. He became a bad time with an additional black bags under his eyes.

One night while I was asleep, the mother came home with a limp state. He’s like the fatigue brought belajaan goods market. He stroked her legs ngelus.I watched him.

“Mom why?”

“When the market falls. Slippery. Hurt like hell .. it feels tomorrow terseleo mother tried massage .. “

“If so not need anymore to the market. Uda tau slippery and dirty. Aja buy in the supermarket “

“If not buy there. Ga no angel mother fortunately, there are cheaper .. “

“It’s up to mom.”

“Tomorrow it aids push to stall grobak yes ..”

I did not answer and fell asleep. The next morning, when I woke up I saw a mother pushing gelobak with foot pain. I want to help but suddenly there is agnes and friends that are running. Not wanting to shame, I decided to go directly to the school. While in class.Agnes and his friends enjoy the noodles. Noodles which I know he bought it from my mother.

“Bakminya nice huh? Tomorrow to buy more yuk.Anybody want nitip? “

“Where to buy anyway? “Ask another friend.

“Tuh in the capital lame .. street in front of the apartment market. “

I was so anxious to know if they bought it from my mother’s noodles. When I asked the mother to come home not selling tomorrow. But she refused because it has no reason for it. I was angry and decided to go from the house that night. On the street I met a boy who I think lived in the apartment.He was named Aji. He manawarkan me a bottle of aqua as I pensively on the terrace floor flats.

“Really stunned, drink neh ..” she offered and I was speechless.

“Still in really secure seal. Loe here ya son? Cave loe his neighbors. We are one school anyway, only difference I loe still uda grade 3 class 1, coincidentally the cave again to a relative’s house here and clay caves loe .. ”

I accept the drink and started to feel comfortable with aji.

“If anyone should know his name. Kok nights gini diteras flats alone? ‘”

“Angel, BT cave again if ya here .. and cave Quote stay here no problem right? “

“No problem lah? Quote why when you live here? “

“Kirain problem ..?”

“Oh yes there’s a problem. Want a story? “

I did not tell him but finally has a new friend who makes me uncomfortable that night. Early the next morning. I sit in class while working on the task of friends from school. Not bad for helping my allowance. Agnes suddenly be in class with friends genknya,

“By the way, at this school whose name was Angel’s homepage! He said the mother had noodles here schoolboy named angel loh .. ”

“Mother noodles which one?”

“Mother noodles we ate this morning, that’s lame ..”

“Or maybe the angel who was limping mother’s intent ..” they said meliriku.

I immediately left the class. What will become of my life when the children of these schools know that if I child noodle merchants. When I was in the park, aji suddenly appeared.

“Why the hell every cave loe met. Loe’s face always bt why? “

“I somewhat resentful at my friends in class, really like gossip .. so ga mood aja “

“Gosiipin loe ..?”..” so ..” I replied.

“Ignore gossip aja aja if mah .. ga’s name certainly true gossip. Bring the fun wrote. Uh by the way, if you want to come home from school to watch something? “

“Hm …?” I said doubtfully. “I treat .. just calm “

And finally came home from school we went to watch. It was the presence of aji makes me more to have a lot of good things. He makes me feel more appreciated kebanding my friends are tacky and gossip hobby. I went home and when the mother saw me with the charm when he dropped me from his motorcycle. He approached me.

“Who the angel?”

“I aji aunt, school friends Angel ..” said aji.

“Oh yes, I’m the mother angel ..” said the mother, and I was silent,

“You hungry? If you’re hungry can eat noodles in place of trade aunt … “said the mother, and I was surprised angry

“I’m not hungry. I’m going home .. aja “

“Noodle trade aunt ..?” Ask aji in the mother.

“He was near the front here, let’s try tau can promote it to your friends ..”

“What the hell’s mother. “I said and left them together.

Aji and mother just looked at each other.

“Maafin yes, the angel, is fairly short-tempered, if you do not have time to eat noodles can be made aunt tomorrow or sometime alone ..”

“Yes aunt ..”

I felt angry because the mother offers the charm of noodles. It should not need to know Mother aji trade noodles. I’m not talking all day with my mother I’m so confused now facing how to charm a must have wondered about my mother.

The next morning before school, Agnes and his friends have appeared in noodle stalls mother.

“I want Tanya’s mother. Child’s mother’s school in our place. Angel is my first grader, that’s where the hell is it? “

“Oh .. high maternal and child long hair. Wait a minute. In the wallet there is a picture .. who knows you know. “

Then my mother showed me pictures and agnes with his friends immediately get news headlines incredible joy. Them directly to the school. At that time I read a comic that I borrowed from my friend Hendra, he was overweight and a bit stupid but being a good friend who always helped me in class. When the bell rang. School teacher does not enter, agnes suddenly stood up in class.

“There pengumumanan friends neh ..” shouted agnes.

They all stared straight agnes and me, too.

“Neh ye listen to on .. if all here like noodles. Who want to buy a tasty noodle and the usual cave eating with friends can be a message to the cave.Bakminya nice loh. If you want to .. I wrote in order.Only 10 000 .. pretty bowl-itung itung mother’s help, pity limp and his son also I think it costs to make the school … “

Looks like the kids are very interested in the noodles. Teacher of the school entrance. Agnes sat down with satisfied smiles at me. When school breaks suddenly he approached me.

“Ngel, neh order noodles .. love to nyokap loe .. “

“What the hell loe ..”

They stared at each other and laughed suddenly meledekku.

“Loe really so stupid to pretend anyway, rather than the mother who sells noodles were limp nyokap loe.This morning he had a story to us-we really. Instead he asked for help promoin noodles .. us-we’re good.Finally noodles nyokap loe promosiin cave and order a lot .. Grandma’s love to nyokap loe. Good intentions really rejected .. “agnes said, handing me the paper.

I took it and tore and threw him.

“Loe not have to mess ya .. asshole” said agnes and we were fighting.

After being separated agnes shouting insults with his bruised face and so did I..

“Loe basis of the poor not know diuntung, uda nice cave aids jualarin Mother noodle loe .. very poor stay poor! “

I went home with feelings of anger. Why the mother would do this and embarrass me. At that time I cried at home. Mother was trade, when he walked into the bowl drive customers suddenly he fell because his legs in pain. Buyer’s mother approached.

“Mom why her feet hell wrote not in order or take it to the doctor ..”

“Gapapa, this entar also heal itself .. ”

Today’s mother came home earlier than trade. A customer approached

“Why am amet lid, but I want to eat?”

“Neh yes, my son’s birthday .. I want to market to buy clothes for him .. “

Mothers deliberately withhold pain was not because he did not want to go to the builders order to treat it.But he had other reasons because he wanted to give me gifts, presents a new school uniform for me. He seemed satisfied with the goods he bought belajaan. When it came home with joy and suddenly surprised to see my face bruised.

“Why can you like this? Why are you falling angel? “

“Mothers want to know why? All because of mom, mother asking why agnes for bantuin selling noodles at the school, the mother not know everyone so I know his son’s limp noodle artisans sell! “

Suddenly the mother slapped me and that was the first slap him in my life. I was angry and ran away from home rain above. Mother cried and sat at the kitchen table with a face lesuh. I do not know where to run and without direction. I just sat and was silent between the rain and cried. Feeling life is not fair, why do I have experienced poverty. I fell asleep at the bus stop. And when I woke up the rain was gone.11 pm at that time.

I walked home, and suddenly a neighbor told me that the mother fell down the stairs. Now the mother was hospitalized. I was shocked and went straight to hospital. Seeing a mother with a full leg splint circumstances. He broke his leg in a fall from a ladder.

“Why women can get here?” I asked.

“Mother wanted to go down and find your mother suddenly fell down the stairs, mother’m sorry I slapped you ..”

I paused and tried to forget about it. The doctor then examined him and he said to me she should stay a few days.

“Said the doctor’s mother was not allowed to go home, the mother should be cared for here. ”

“But the cost of expensive hospital, we where able to angel ..”

“Where do I know .. Who ordered the mother to be like this. Angel wanted to go home first. Sleepy and have school tomorrow. “

I said, annoyed even feel sorry for the mother but my pride is too high to demonstrate in his cares in the mother. When I got home I suddenly saw a small birthday cake and a new school uniforms. That’s when I realized, my mother prepares my birthday today. I was too busy thinking about the problem of school because of stress to unconsciousness. The new uniform makes me a bit to show off at school tomorrow. I want to thank my mother but unfortunately she was not home. Minimal tomorrow, I’d say it if I remember!

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Mom can exit the hospital three days later at a cost very much money and spend the savings. For a while he did not trade noodles and it would make me safe from gossip agnes being gencar2nya meledekku with young artisan noodles. Although no income, but I can survive with the money to do pr tips classmates. I no longer need the allowance from the mother.

2 months later the mother had begun to walk with a cane. One night I was not able to get out of bed and my body chills. Mother worried and took me to the doctor. It turns out I was infected with dengue virus and entered a critical phase. Enormous cost to make the mother very upset with the situation that no longer trade noodles. Without thinking I was treated to impose capital costs. At that time he just looked at me helplessly limp silent. And in the hospital there was a husband who was crying because his wife was dying. He needs a kidney to his wife. But no donor is willing to help the continuity of his wife. Mom came over and suddenly he offers himself. The man offered some money to the mother. For me, the mother was willing to donate a kidney.

Thanks to mother donated the kidney that I live Because the mother immediately moved me to the best care at the hospital. When I recovered a few days later, I did not see the mother. I just saw my friend Hendra Aji comes along. Until finally I got out the hospital a few days later. No one picked me up, they said the mother was out of town to meet with the family requested the help of money. And I know that hospital costs have been paid off. Mother said she was out of town on purpose so he would not know if he was in the maintenance period.

But I was wrong, and increasingly aware of losing the mother. It’s been two weeks since I did not see the mother and finally a neighbor told me that the mother be hospitalized the same with their children because they do not accidentally melihart mother. I went straight to the hospital. Mother tergelatak limp on the bed. He looks at me with tears.

“Why women can be treated here? Mother sick? “

“Noproblem mother, can also be out soon ..”

“The mother told the angel, the mother why .. mother be honest .. “

“Noproblem mother son .. Just a sick mother .. “

I do not force the mother to be honest anymore because he’s like holding her stomach in pain. That night I guard it. Suddenly mom talked to me. It reminded me of old school uniforms.

“Mom .. school clothes thanks .. Angel has not had time to say yesterday .. “

“Yes son, together. Angel’s mother forgive, not the mother has not wanted to membahagikan you.Mother know you’re angry because your father’s death. Mom tried to mother as much as you like happy moments we had with my father. But the mother failed, the mother can only make you angry.Mom really sorry, sorry mom “

“Why women talk like this, it need not be discussed.Angel also do not think so “

“Mother, is not a good mother. Until you can not afford to buy underwear when you’re grown even do not know what to buy you new clothes, women endure pain in the legs mother just to collect money so that you get proper clothing, but as much as any working mother, your father left debts which are notinexhaustible .. even until this moment. “said the weeping mother

“Already bu .. Do not go .. angel apologize. Angel ga never understand that feeling. Angel selfish and did not accept the fact that we are already not the first .. “I said hugging a crying mother.

“Mother only hope. Mom can change things like they used to be .. Only that kid .. “

That night, I know how great a mother’s sacrifice to me, a sense of selfishness that made me realize that I was so ungodly never appreciate the sacrifices which he did. I hugged her mother and vowed in my heart when she recovered, I’d be happy he’s in any way. Mom is not getting better from day to day. Until finally, he died the night after the hug. I cried in my mother’s loss.

Doctors say the mother did not have it either after donating a kidney. Things that made me so melancholy and sad, mother do all that to make my life continues to exist. He was willing to sell his kidney to his father paid off the debt. In order to secure my future with the donor’s money but he himself should go to the state without ever saw me like a dream today.

The last thing he said to me, made me so hard to forget all his kindness.

“However the mother mad at you, maternal anger is compassion. No mother would be angry without a cause to their children. Later when you become a mother, you will understand, the world’s mother always wanted her to be happy anywhere. Despite the anger the way .. “

If only there is remorse and time again, I would never do the greatest folly of my life wasted yiakan maternal sacrifice.

But time is a cruel place for those who never could appreciate it, like I could cry just looking beautiful times should I use with my mother but now can only be relived in memories.

Hopefully this story can teach us to understand

A mother’s love may not be perfect for our lives. But a mother’s love is love without a reply which will never be replaced with any living perfection in this world.

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Story Written by : Agnes Davonar (Indonesia)